Why am I alive?
To kill your drive
To kill your flight
To level your height
To blind your sight
Out of spite
Why am I alive?
To kill your drive
To kill your flight
To level your height
To blind your sight
Out of spite

Why do we go to space when we can't even always go to the store?
Why do we write, paint and strum when we can't even always pay our rent?
Why do we invest in ourselves when there is no guarantee?
Why do we help others when we struggle ourselves?
Why do we strive?
Why are we alive?
Our bodies are our home and our vessel.
Our bodies connect us to the material and spiritual.
Our bodies eventually take us across the great divide.
Do you exist? The social perspective versus the whole or autonomous or actualized person.
Do you exist without your relation to other people? If you do, you have good relations and relationships and financial success and inner and outer peace. If you don’t, you are poor in spirit and materially and in relations. And you are prone to violence and microviolence.
If you are always focusing on other people, you will never be happy and usually not achieve or achieve less. If you exist without your relationship to other people, you will have good relations and form loving communities. If you are always focusing on the social and other people, you will have communities of enmity or cancellation or violence.
Social develops naturally. Where it is forced, you have anti-social psychology and behavior. You have violence and meta violence.
And a whole person is much more at peace. And peaceful. And empathetic and kind and giving and philanthropic.
If you want to rule, you will always be a slave. If you don’t want to rule, you will always be a king.
And this is the human perspective. There are those who will con you with social community or justice or alleged good intentions-- so that they can steal everything from you—and rule you. And centralized authority ALWAYS devolves into this.
If you have been raised with values or morals or mores you of course can freely associate or form communes or communities or even nations (if you are homogenous) where you have similar mores and some type of community. Ideally.
Rx
Back to basics - What do you do in an apocalypse?
You may be unaware, but you are living in an apocalypse. It is sold as a zeitgeist. You have likely acquired some magic and it seems obvious that this is a higher evolution. The truth is sobering. This magic came from sacrificing someone very important to get you all the things you think you are getting—but he was giving you—and much more—including magic and beauty and money—without cost. Some parties brokered and utilized this man and fronted you a shadowy version of this evolution or spirituality—with terrible costs—and you and planet earth—for profit.
If you are old enough, you remember the deluge. Most of the people left are old enough to remember. But everyone wants young vagina. Or to have young looking vagina. Including the women. So there is an unhealthy over-focus on sex.
The population of planet earth was evacuated about forty years ago due to this alleged zeitgeist—so that everyone wouldn’t be sacrificed. Things are that bad. From our personal lives to our family lives to our work lives to politics and economics, we have sacrificed ourselves, our children and our world.
Most of us are like heroin addicts now. We are busy getting off and not able to support or take care of our families or spouse or ourselves. Someone is floating you your cash and alcohol and food and water. While you imbibe. If you don’t know, you cannot count on something inorganic. Something without roots. Personally and globally.
Some know that there is something very wrong. Some might think this is normal. Some think fuck it. The ones who are responsible for it are hailing a new era of some kind. Or claiming to be victims. Of what exactly?
A few of us are embracing vagina and this magic as the new spirituality. Some of us are trying to justify everything out loud as if that makes a difference. Some people are giving up and moving to Seattle. Everyone is diverting somehow.
So, what do you do in an apocalypse? What do you do when the world is collapsing? What do you do when your life is collapsing—or tenuous? You do the same things that you do when anything is tough. You may likely not know what that is…
You focus on working your way through or out of it. Internally and externally.
Internally you work on meditation. Not just on a yoga mat for an hour. But throughout your day and life. You try and be love and kindness oriented. But resilient and hearty.
Externally you focus on survival. The things that are integral to survival. Being able to support yourself or survive either in this social study or without it. Pairing or grouping up for support and safety. Being on the defensive, not the offensive.
You take care of family. It is ironic in this spiritual evolution that we don’t know how to deal with what we see. For example knowing where our children’s soul came from. Or punishing them like we are God. Or using them as vessels. So we neglect or use or abuse our children. If we were truly spiritual, we would take care of our children and spouse like we would normally. So I suggest back to basics.
You may have noticed, but there really is no economy anymore. So we are inches away from having to hunt or farm for survival. If we make it to the other side, where the world was evacuated to, what will that look like? How will we survive? You likely will experience a paradigm shift along with a world shift.
If we make it to the other side, we may likely have a repayment on the front of what we stole. What will that repayment look like? To simplify, it will look like the source and target of our evolution and growth. We will have to experience what we did and do to him.
You can also start repaying now to alleviate your future karmic pain. That is the best evolutionary and spiritual move you can make.
Imagine the most disgusting disturbing vile hilarious thing you have ever seen.
It is actually a mirror
There is world where you can get as the best dildos as possible. Plastic, metal, electric, etc. It is in a laissez faire society: a society with institutions that preserve individual rights and voluntary association and property and money. it is the same world that gave you birth control.
There is world where you can get as many bitches as possible. And they are showered and shaven. It is in a laissez faire society: a society with institutions that preserve individual rights and voluntary association and property. Your right to do or not do who you want--as long as you allow others to do who or not do who they want.
There is a world where you can get as much money as possible. It is in a laissez faire society: a society with institutions that preserve individual rights and voluntary association and property. Your right to do and trade--or not do-- as you want--as long as you allow others to do as they want.
There is a world where you get as much marijuana as possible. It is in a laissez faire society: a society with institutions that preserve individual rights and voluntary association and money. Your right to smoke and sell as you want--as long as you allow others to smoke and sell as they want.
Psychology and Psychiatry and Medicine and Magic
We are currently in pre-modern psychology. We don’t know much about the brain. Or mental illness. Or medicine for it. We cannot really heal mental illness. We don’t even really know much about medicine. We are not very far as doctors. A few happy accidents made modern medicine seem modern: the accidental discovery of penicillin and a few other drugs and vaccines (measles, mumps, and tuberculosis). And painkillers and steroids and other—quite simply—drugs.
Organic chemistry taught us more than we ever knew. As did other experimentation on a human being. It was a quantum leap, as it were—a leap far beyond modern medicine—but it doesn’t really help us all that much.
Organic chemistry can be likened to shamanism. We learn a lot about how to manipulate the human body and mind as a machine—but we have yet to supercede God. Even shamans can’t heal mental illness. They can alleviate it as long as they are nursing a patient. But as soon as they stop shifting the patient’s chakras, the mental illness returns. We almost cannot heal anything.
Psychology began as an assessment of this pseudo shamanism itself. Freud basically called us chimpanzees. Or, as he phrased it, children: telling us we were mentally ill for what we were about to do—for what we are doing. Jung attempted to for us to endeavor our own journey that we might help instead of do harm to our patients.
Our primary modus operandi is hammering patients with heavy psychotropics with little to no evidence of effectiveness. Or caging them. But that is very expensive. Or talk therapy: basically confessional. But we are basically animals drilling in monkeys’ heads—as doctors.
Even in medicine, we still use hammers and saws and knives—there is blood everywhere—and let God do the heavy lifting—and give the patient the notion that we know what we are doing—when God is doing virtually everything.
We are hacks. We are sex addicts. And money addicts. And we become monsters. We are still based in the material—as opposed to the spiritual. We are still talking about sex or money or justice or race or gender. Sex, money and power. Even the best of us.
And we do end up with some form of the supernatural. That seems to be a case in point that we are right somehow, admittedly. But there are shortcuts to magic; to having our third eye opened. And we are taking them—or it. It used to be called human sacrifice or witchcraft. Or black magic. It is essentially raping a man with a female guardian angel to please the male guardians of this planet in an irony. It requires and indicates no skill or spirituality or superiority whatsoever. The more significant the man, the more alleged inheritance we get.
A case in point that this is not homo superior, is that the magic we get, we lose. For example, real earned magic comes with something called intent. The shaman can create a loaf of bread or a bar of gold in his or her had out of nothing. If you can’t do this you are a witch—not a real shaman. And if you had this but lose it, you are a witch, not a shaman. Chances are if you create the gold bars instead of the loaves of bread, you are a witch, not shaman; and. Chances are you will lose your magic.
Another case in point that you are not homo superior is that there are zero negative side-effects to real magic or having your third eye opened. There are many terrible side effects of witchcraft. The side-effects match your intentions. If you are trying to get sex, you end up fat and sterile. If you are trying to get money, you end up addicted to alcohol or other drugs. Or many things like this. If you are trying to get power, even worse things happen. Like being reborn disabled or as insects of some kind—or having no body at all. I admit, I don’t know all the details. I do not practice anything unethical. And witchcraft is inherently unethical. And inherently not homo superior.
In fact, in my experience and observation, it’s not just things like magic and chakralogy that makes us spiritual. We are basically the same even when we acquire what we call spirituality. It is not the magic that makes us. It is hard earned wisdom. Mostly based around love and goodness. Otherwise, we are just more powerful selfish people. And we have actually created a much bigger problem than solution with this “homo-superior” magic. Many pretend to be good. Many admit what this is.
There is real magic. It is very very rare. Castaneda attempted to establish a path for real shamans. For real magic. Perhaps based on a path that already existed. Perhaps not. It is a very difficult path. Much more difficult than medical school and all the school leading up to it. And it does lead to real magic—along with the mental and emotional maturity of being a spiritual adult. Not just shifting your chakras and pretending. Maybe even to yourself.
There is a caveat for this alleged zeitgeist. Part of it was given—and free of charge. But one had to reel oneself in according to a set of rules to avoid destroying oneself and planet earth. Not the subject/object’s rules—or choice: God’s choice. And a female god gave these rules to us. Her name was Elyse. Or Annie. His name was Al. Al is in his next life writing this article. And doing many other things. Even as he is used and demonized and slaughtered. Elyse already fled to be reborn in Germany from what I heard.
Someone is showing you a fake me. I represent a threat to someone. and am a boon to you.
Bowling
Paint me like every evil around
For every man in town
To bowl me down
To in woman drown
And for every woman
To get off with a blender
And then send her
Off and cummin’
And this innocent man
Send off asail
To inner space
For this cherry race
All leather and rail and lace
Rx - Augriculture - Macro-anthropology (Ecomonics)
People naturally act and interact in what could be called a web of interconnectedness based on their volition (their wants and desires and passions and individual and group character). This organic web could be called an economy or a system (system is a misnomer as it is all grassroots—bottom up—not governed top down). This web or economy creates everything we value including wealth and culture. People voluntarily associate and trade according to their desires and connect with each other organically. In a web like this, there is more wealth (also wealth distributed most equally across all castes—although the greatest creators and facilitators will be extremely wealthy) and culture —not to mention passion and purpose—than any organized or governed “system.” This is called laissez-faire economics or capitalism.
Any large governing will cripple this web of voluntarily association like an axe to a coral reef. Overregulation and erroneous taxation brutally cuts and inhibits this organic interconnectedness. This the best way to alllow this augriculture is a minimal government in terms of top down coercion. Though this web does benefit from a minimal government to guarantee the liberty and non interference of any entities brutalizing people and this web—including big government and monopolies and cartels.
Also government (coercion) cannot or will not create this organic interconnectedness. It is way too complicated. It is way too natural like a law of nature. An effort to recreate this augriculture could be likened to recreating the multifaceted connectedness of every individual in the society to every other individual in the society.
The mathematical definition representation of this would be that the government has to recreate the ( number of the population ) ! . So if the population is, say, the size of Europe (350 million people), the government would have to replicate and predict (and be purely altruistic insodoing—without any corruption or avarice in it’s vanguard) 350 million! Filaments or strands between the people and each other. That is more than trillions of relationships—economic and other kinds—to effectively serve the population. I mean combinations not permutations.
It is well known that communist nations are dirt poor across the board. And that absolute power eventually or immediately corrupts. It is less well known that socialist nations only allow wealthy people to immigrate and maintain that all members are independently wealthy. It is well known around the world that the United States is a holy grail for people around the world to immigrate to for its liberty and opportunity (the freedom to work and keep what you have earned)—except in the United States itself (it’s own inhabitants denigrate it’s principles and uniqueness in it’s liberties and are spoiled and entitled and call for the dismantling of the most prolific and successful economic and cultural experiment in history.
The United States is an example at an attempt at augiculture. It has been corrupted—but still has the most opportunity in the world—at least according to immigrants. While American foreign policy spawns a dislike of America and perhaps Americans, most people in the world who lack opportunities yearn to immigrate to the United States and even have gone so far as to criticize publicly America’s own people for dismantling something that foreigners wish they had so badly. And the ills of the America that are well-known ( like health care costs and militarism) are not truly American at all. They are the result of cartels and people above the government of the people, by the people and for the people.
America is an example. It’s vast wealth and opportunity and burgeoning culture (music, film, art, literature). Are simply a product of its being augricultural. Any nation in theory could be augricultural. And it’s people would be much appreciative.
Augriculture is the highest natural and organic state of people and their relationship to each other (often referred to as “economics”). It likely requires a minimal government. It is often referred to as libertarianism. All needs are met best in augriculture. Along with the thriving of the spirit—as everyone is allowed to do what they wish and associate as they wish.
It is okay to have infrastructure performed by the government. Things that are naturally centralized: like roads and fire departments and police and other things like this—and, perhaps, other infrastructures like social services.
Rx - There is no fate but that which we make
I have been seeing videos of shoplifters routing stores. I have seen many storefronts closed (before Covet - 17). The police are now unable to keep the peace.
Economies are crashing. Governments are printing money and handing it out. Many people are now praying to God. Others are scavenging what they can.
People are being paid to still sell us alcohol. There is a mass diversion occurring on the internet.
I just saw a video of citizens chasing down and tackling a shoplifter. I am seeing now on social media people finally questioning the collective consciousness. Even openly criticizing it and disagreeing with it--for the first time in years. or decades.
Our collective welfare is based on either cooperation and trade or the law of the jungle. If you live in a community. If you live on a farm or in the woods, I am guessing you already protect yourself. And have spoken with other farmers or people in your vicinity: to protect your sustenance and peace. In the cities we are faced with doing the same thing.
I suggest town hall and secret meetings and decide how to protect our sustenance and livelihood and peace. I suggest speaking your mind openly and freely. I suggest thinking hardabout what you value most and if and how you want to protect it.
I suggest honest conversations with family and potential family. I suggest maintaining an armored education and growth chamber for our children that is protected from this divertimente. So that they all will be viable spiritual and material beings.
We determine our reality. We have determined it up to this point. We will determine it into the future.
We determine education. We determine trade. We determine parenting. We determine what our children become--what society becomes. We determine our government. We determine our laws. We determine our spirituality. We determine our material well-being--either individually--or in cooperation with others. We determine our safety--and mutual safety and well-being.
In reality, the police can't help us that much. The government can't help us that much. Depending on our participation in any given society. Only we can help ourselves. It takes courage on an individual level. It takes communication in a group environment. And any cooperation and trade that we decide is good--or necessary.
Things have come to a reality check.
Our governments have failed us. Have we failed ourselves? When I saw regular citizens chasing down and holding down a shoplifter, I gained hope.
If there is a problem, it is up to us to solve it. We can use love with each other. And our children. And we can limit aggression and psychology and force to keep the peace. Or allow or embrace violence and tribalism and scavenging and rape and murder and theft.
We can try and form governments that facilitate our cooperation, trade and basic safety: rights--and stop theft, murder and rape. Or we can institutionalize theft, murder and rape. Individual rights and voluntary association allow material and spiritual wealth and health and community. More coercion (force; control) leads to more destitution materially and spiritually and collectively.
And this is reflected in how we look; our sex lives; our distribution of wealth; our spirituality--our actualization--individually and collectively.
Do you believe you own your mind? Do you believe you own your body? Do you believe you own your clothes? Do you believe you own your shoes? Do you believe you own your vagina? Do you believe you own your soul?
Where is the coercion leading? From where is our security derived? Where does our love grow?
Where is the theft leading? Where is the labor leading?
We can be an organism of nature--and coexist with it. And protect and enjoy it. And be a part of it. Or we can allow the jungle to overgrow the cities--our communities. It is an option to run. But I don't know if you can actually get away.
We have determined our entire society. Our entire world. And our individual welfare. In reality. And we will protect our well-being--both spiritually and materially. Or we won't. And we will reap the fruits of our labor. Or apathy. Or fear. Or love. And strength.
There is no fate but that which we make.
Rx
You see so much that you are blind.
Keep doing the basics. Keep enriching yourself (1. being loving; 2. meditation (3. making amends for transgressions)). Take car of family. Do not sexualize children. Keep enriching your community.
Keep doing the basics. Then/and get high/off.
Mastering the basics are more advanced than being spiritual sushi chefs. Eventually, mastering the basics will take you higher than the heights you think you have achieved. And make your material world abundant. And your bodies will be beautiful.
God and the Devil
(Ideally) No one is deciding for us. (Ideally) There is no one playing God. If there is a God, he shows us how to do it ourselves. He does not desire to be in control or to be worshipped. Perhaps he has to invisibly intercede in times of crisis. And visibly in times of emergency. Only a Devil would want something from you without paying for it. Only a Devil would try to rearrange everything to suit themselves. Only a Devil would want to control you.
How do liberty and government relate to economics and culture?
Liberty—which does have a minimal government—to preserve liberty—allows people to trade freely and be entrepreneurs more easily. There are more businesses. More technology. More jobs. More tax dollars for infrastructure. Thus, there is more wealth—and more distribution of wealth.
With more wealth comes more culture: more art, more music, more film. This has been true since the renaissance beginning in Florence and Vienna and the enlightenment in Germany and Britain and the modern era in the United States, Britain, Germany and Japan. Each of these nations benefitted from free trade and entrepreneurship—which overflowed into culture and art.
In societies where there is an authority determining the flow of wealth. There is less equal distribution of wealth. There are less entrepreneurs and less jobs. There is limited or virtually no trade. And the people of those societies are much more burdened and poorer and have to work harder—if they can find work—for less money and less infrastructure (the things that government does do—like education and healthcare and roads and bridges and police and fire departments). Also, horrible things happen to culture. There are cultural revolutions where centuries of art and literature and spirituality are destroyed.
So many nations and continents are devastated by authoritarian rule. Their people are poor and hungry and without so many things. Even basic health and safety.
The stick of authority is brutal and destructive—vinegar to a people. The carrots of laissez faire politics/economics are water to a people.
In each nation that has had the choice between modernism: laissez faire economics—and well-intentioned government. Well-intentioned government has crippled or destroyed these nations’ and their peoples’ well-being.
How does this happen? There is a fervor over a philosophy that overtakes the voters or their representatives (the peoples’ representatives are also these philosophes and intelligentsia (de facto)) and a revolution or a new government is formed that says everything the people want to hear: We will take care of you. We will provide for you. We will protect you. Everyone wants to hear this. It is the same thing that happens in fascism.
And institutionalization occurs. The people become dependent on the government to take care of them. And the organic connections between people disappear. The organic entrepreneurship disappears—or there is no opportunity. The organic trade doesn’t have avenues. The jobs disappear. So, there is less or no wealth to redistribute.
And the only art and culture left in government driven societies is that which worships the new religion. The state. The propaganda that supports the state. The propaganda that supports the collective consciousness. That supports the state. Or the monarch. Or the despot.
This is the best-case scenario. In most cases, a brutal monarchy or despotism takes over. And a brutal dictatorship occurs. And the people live in destitution and fear and violence. They are not allowed to speak freely. They are not allowed to protest the government. They are often burglarized by government agents—even murdered. Even murdered en masse.
And a cold truth that may be hard to believe—even in modern nations: these philosophes and intelligentsia—and their media—become landed gentry: royalty. They get paid to con all of you. Over time, these intelligentsia do it for free. This is nearly impossible to believe—and highly dangerous to say: but it is the old royalty regaining power over you. It is back to lords and serfs. You become serfs to the royalty again—guised as progressives—but you agreed to it!